over working

there is a famous analogy about Sivaji's acting prowess. பத்து ருபாய் வாங்கிட்டு ௧௦௦ ருபாய்க்கு நடிக்கிரார்னு. i guess every one is like that.

 

it is a new position. will take a long time to know what is in store.

how does one make career choice, vision, hope reality,stupidity, money, explore,what will hold good.

Gandhijis letter

was reading abook "compilation of gandhis letters" to his women followers.

his curious and outrageous experiment with sex and sexuality baffles. no matter how much you think and try to understand his point of view it difficult to rationale.

i can never understand his celibacy vows and his constant obsession in  testing it.

if there is one thing a modern society will not accept for sure is this. I like sex, love etc. experimenting in sex i can understand, what is there to experiment in celibacy bapu, you have missed a lot

Long time

there is no post for a long does it mean i am becoming better.......

not bad

sickening

letter to gandhi

how do i call u, bapu, gandhi, what ever i know for sure you are not going to get this letter any way. then y do i write it. you know i have a habit of talking to dead people, like god they just listen, only difference is dead people have a history and you cant imagine the way you want it has to fit into that history.

let me give u the power to listen, and know my life fully,(of course u cant advice me or leak my secret) . now that it is granted i cant lie you know every thing, u know why this letter, but still i will write because u know to whom the letter is intended.

will call u bapu.
bapu i have a problem i like u lot but cant follow you. i am convinced of most of the things you say, (ofcourse i disagree on many) but cant follow. i try but fail. how did you become a mahatma, who helped you to stay loving, compassionate and  intelligent. i am intelligent, i dont doubt it, but i am not able to love, or forgive. i know what you will say, you will forgive me for shouting, getting angry and being mean. but i want to be like you (atleast to an extent). where did you learn, did prayer help, or having faith in god help. if yes these cant help me because i dont believe in god, you have to give me another way to teach me to love and be compassionate.

let us meet tom

i think u should have declared yourself as god, that would have helped me.
i know you didnt even accepted the mahatma titile. i know why, you were afraid that they will compare you, scrutinize all your deeds with the title and who ever had this title before you. they will tell you "mahatmas dont do this, do that" they will start talking, eating, only with the image of the title, any dissonance with image creates problems. one such dissonance killed you.
its not only mahatmas who face this problem any one with a little ideology or even liking for the ideology have this problem.
you see i love you (whether it is you or the image that i have about u is immaterial), and like any lover i talk about you, i dont miss any chances to glorify or defend you. it creates a problem. but they expect me to be like you, and follow you.  when ever i get angry they dont miss to tell me "you are not gandhian", where is gandhi so on and on even wearing modern shirt, riding bullet, talking about sex/having it invites such remarks. you and i understand how different we are from eachother, but that doesnt matter.

that is why you should have declared yourself as god. nobody asks the christian, muslims why you are not like jesus, or prophet.

calvin & hobbes

i can closely relate to calvin sometimes:
You need some dirty tricks some times to be virtuous??